one happy family.

papa, mama, baby #1, baby #2,




baby #3 is now growing in mama's belly,




3 dogs out playing with a ball,




2 cats in garden taking a nap.




fireplace, fluffy sofa, home made brownies.










one happy family.

last autumn in NL.

funny how you get to appreciate things




when you know you won't get to have them again.







i never knew autumn in holland could be this beautiful.




it's yellow.




it's a bit rainy.




it's a bit red.






it's a bit sad.

you, you, you, you, you, and you..

i ♥ you

kralingse zoom.

last metros.




ezprezzo.




breaks.




name sticker.




tears.




shoulder and arms.




visits.




red tie, black shirts.




jokes.




double latte with straw.











memories.

09.11.09

first time in weeks,




as if having hard time with falling asleep was a lie,




by the magic work of a schaapje, 1 slept for 10 hours straight.




woke up in the morning, took a shower,




dried hair, opened window.





"winter settles in..

the window's open now and winter settles in..."






wouldn't realize how beautiful autumn is if it was long.




goofy feels it too.






goodbye autumn, good bye yellow leaves.








i want to remember everything.

even the smell of this bread. even your knife i used.




i want to remember every corner.


i want to remember everything in this room.






remember the brunch in the city of yellow cabs?





i fight through my tears.







reeve carney is singing again tonight.




"when I'm lost, you bring me back..



when I cry, you make me glad"

tea.

sunday afternoon chamomile tea.




add a spoon of words from donna tartt,




a spoon of autumn burning wood smell,




a spoon of "thinking of you" by reeve carney,




a spoon of kisses on goofy's olive black nose,




a spoon of your kusje.

A walk.

rain, no cell phone, no wallet,




no Gunny Bunny, endless worries




but...






ipod, headphone, Goofy,




sunset, soft autumn winds









that's all i need for a walk.